When I look into the mirror, I always ask myself: who am I and who do I wanna be? People around me see the same girl who I see? Probably not. They don’t feel my feelings, they don’t hear my thoughts, they don’t know my past. They don’t know me truly. Nobody. And sometimes I feel that I don’t know myself either. I always try to be strong and brave, but the true is that I’m so weak and I’m afraid. I would like to talk with my future self and I would like to ask her, is it worth? Is it worth trying?
But would it be right if I knew my future? I have chosen wortly so many times and after I realised that the nice things wouldn’t have happened later if I didn’t make that mistake. I know that I’ll go somewhere in the future – I don’t know where yet – but first I have to go a long way. There’s no such thing as wasted time, because even if it won’t be like you want, you will be more and you will learn a lot. The attempts improve you. That is what you have to make aware in yourself.
Hello girls! I really like to pair with each other different styles. The grunge is my favorite, but sometimes, it’s a good idea to spice up with few bohemian accessories. For example a big, black hat and very long cardigan. This look is vibrating and attracts the gaze, but not because it’s too ostentatious. It’s special, but feminine at the same time. I can’t get enough of it.
The Iron Maiden shirt reminds me, who I’m truly. It shows my dark and hard side, but on the other hand, there are the hat and the platform high heels and it recalls my feminine energy. Perfect couple.
Hello girls! Today I make a little bit extreme outfit for you. I haven’t worn thigh socks since my street incident, so this was a really bizarre feeling now. My paranoia came back. I felt that everyone was looking at me and judging me. I have to build back what torn into pieces.
By the way, at this time, I didn’t wear makeup either, because when I woke up, I was very tired. I just don’t understand how do the other people always looking perfectly? I promised myself, that I will go to the street only if I’m in good shape, but after I realised, this is sickly.
Not the makeup and not my outfit determine who I’m. I’m the same girl too, if I haven’t enough power to put on makeup or something like that. This is a bullshit as well, that a fashion blogger has to look perfectly all the time. We are human beings too. We have some mistakes too. I dont`twanna teach you that if you`re acting, people will love you better. I wanna teach you to accept yourself.
Hello girls! Now I made a super easy outfit for you, but I really like this look because of its simplicity. Nowdays I try to wear more light clothes, because I’m starting to get bored of the black. I don’t know, maybe the spring is the reason. Or the rainy days, because they made me so depressed, so now I need some color that I get back my positive attitude what is really needed for me now.
By the way, I really love my new denim jacket! This was the firts time, when I wore it, because after I bought, the cold came back. Yeah, this is so ironic. Sometimes I feel that the weather has fun with me. But this morning, there was a beautiful sunshine out there, so I really hope that this weather stay from now. I’m planning a lot outfits in my head, but I can’t take pictures of them if it rains all the time. So girls, send posotive energy for the heavens, maybe they are listening to us.
Hello girls! In my last thrift haul video, I mentioned that I haven’t got any idea, which clothes look good with this leopard pattern cardigan. But now, I think I have found the answer. It could be a really good choice with a white t-shirt and black denim shorts. By the way, this shorts are home maded. I like much more the DIY clothes, because they are unique. I’m wondering that I should make a tutorial video about that how you can make grunge clothes by yourself. Are you interested in these tutorial videos? Please, let me know in comment. 🙂
Today I wanna talk about a really hard topic, but I think this is an important one and people have to talk more about it. So, yes, I want to talk with you, but I don’t say make a tea and listen queitly what I say, because I wanna talk with you and people are needed for a conservation. It doesn’t mean that you have to agree with me. I would be really happy, if I can start something in your mind on this subject and you share your thoughts with me.
This is a really good question, that the clothes make the person or not? Well, this is a really hard question, I guess. Partly, yes, but on the other hand no….
My favorite part of a journey is when I get off the train and I see the light shining throught the window of the station. This time it looks like a crystal window. So proud and beautiful. I get a mystical feeling. I just see the flowing mass of people around me and I can get enough of it.
This is so incredible that I love this city and I’m dreaming about that I live here for a long time, but there is everything about this town that I hate. Crowd, large spaces and I always feel like a lost little girl in a huge concrete jungle. It feels like the buildings grow over my head and they want to eat me. It’s so scary. However, here I truly feel that I live and I’m part of the blood circulation.